I was originally going to write about the amazing time I had in Venice with Mercedes, but after hearing some sad news I decided to save that post for another day, when I’m feeling a bit more upbeat.
These past 3 days I have been feeling sad and emotional and not knowing why. I honestly had no idea why I was feeling down, I was thinking to myself how on earth can I be feeling sad, I’m on holiday in Venice…am I crazy?! I just assumed it was to do with me leaving Valencia soon to go back to England, and how I am dreading leaving the city that stole my heart.
Have you ever felt down and not known why? Almost as if you are feeling someone else’s pain?
I believe that sometimes you can feel that something is wrong within your family, almost a sense that someone is hurting. That is exactly what I was feeling when I was in Venice, I felt strange, almost as if something was missing and that I was lost.
There was a reason I was feeling like that, my brother had received some devastating news and I knew he was hurting.
I was brought up a catholic, but I would never say that I am a strict catholic. I do not go to church often, I’m not one to preach, but I am one that believes there is someone up there looking down on us all. I do not like to judge people on their religion, if religion and faith help people then why be against it?
Like I said I am not a very religious person, but of course Venice is surrounded by so many beautiful churches. It just felt wrong not to go in, sit down, have a prayer and see how God was doing. I surprisingly felt so much relief from just sitting there thinking about life and meditating. I really didn’t think I would have enjoyed the experience as much as I did, but I can truly say that it helped me think more positively and feel like a weight had lifted off my shoulders.
Before, I never really understood how people could feel so refreshed after going to church and strongly believe in a religion with their being. After these past 3 days I am definitely changing my thoughts and views. I don’t feel like church will necessarily help everyone, but I do believe that being in such a sacred environment with your own thoughts and meditating can really help. I prefer to just visit church randomly and just sit there in silence, no mass and no celebrations, just my personal therapy.
If you have been going through a rough time or have lost someone close to you, I suggest visiting your local church, having a sit down and just be there with your thoughts. It is a beautiful way to reflect and relax. Lighting a candle for someone you love always helps.
Stay strong and keep positive!