Valencia what did you do to me?

Right, so you know when people say that they have visited a place that is AMAZING and It stole their heart. Well, before I never really understood what people meant..Obviously, I could appreciate the beauty and scenery of a place, but I would never say I had FALLEN IN LOVE.

This summer that all changed…

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After living in Valencia for 3 months I realised that I never wanted to leave. It was absolutely my ideal city. It is the third largest city in Spain, so it is perfect for work, yet I would never say it was hectic like London.

My dream city would be one that has both a working environment, as well as a neighbourly feel to it. That was exactly what Valencia was in my eyes. I had the local Mercadona, market and bakery right at my doorstep and in a 15 minutes walk I would arrive at the land of work.

I just loved it so much that I wanted to move there! Of course I do want to see more of the world and travel, but after leaving I really did feel like Valencia was my home and that I was leaving it to go back to cold and rainy England….(Very true considering it rained all day today and it was 35 degrees in Valencia…yes in October!!)

Whenever I have spoken to someone who wants to or has dropped out of uni, I would always think to myself WHY?! It is a minimum of 3 years, before I seriously could not comprehend why someone would want to just give up and pursue something else, when they could be getting a degree with a little bit of time and effort. I know people change their minds and believe uni may not be for them, but I just always thought after so much time and the amount of money going towards it, that it would be a wise choice just to stick it out.

I won’t lie and say that I didn’t think about quitting university and staying in Valencia, especially, after being offered to stay longer and even to go back after uni. I had thoughts that I didn’t think I would have ever considered.

During my final 3 weeks I was already feeling sad knowing that I was going to have to leave and go back to uni. It’s not that I don’t like my uni, it’s just that I felt I had grown up in a way and that my uni experience was over. The thought of going back to lectures made me want to cry, it just really felt like I would be taking a step backwards. I got to the point where I had to persuade myself daily ‘One more year Saby! Just one more year!! It will all be worth it in the future’

And it is true, I do stand by that, and I would think it would be irresponsible of me to just quit when I am so very close to the finishing line! I can say my experience has motivated me to do well, graduate and then focus on my PR career.

I met some friends for life….of course MERCEDES and I can honestly say that it was the best experience of my life to date and it really did help me grow as a person, mature and think about all the opportunities I have. I am one lucky girl, and I definitely did realise like many people, I do take my life for granted.

Remember: Don’t take your opportunities for granted!

Love Saby

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That sixth sense we all have

I was originally going to write about the amazing time I had in Venice with Mercedes, but after hearing some sad news I decided to save that post for another day, when I’m feeling a bit more upbeat.

These past 3 days I have been feeling sad and emotional and not knowing why. I honestly had no idea why I was feeling down, I was thinking to myself how on earth can I be feeling sad, I’m on holiday in Venice…am I crazy?! I just assumed it was to do with me leaving Valencia soon to go back to England, and how I am dreading leaving the city that stole my heart.

Have you ever felt down and not known why? Almost as if you are feeling someone else’s pain?

I believe that sometimes you can feel that something is wrong within your family, almost a sense that someone is hurting. That is exactly what I was feeling when I was in Venice, I felt strange, almost as if something was missing and that I was lost.

There was a reason I was feeling like that, my brother had received some devastating news and I knew he was hurting.

Faith…

I was brought up a catholic, but I would never say that I am a strict catholic. I do not go to church often, I’m not one to preach, but I am one that believes there is someone up there looking down on us all. I do not like to judge people on their religion, if religion and faith help people then why be against it?

Like I said I am not a very religious person, but of course Venice is surrounded by so many beautiful churches. It just felt wrong not to go in, sit down, have a prayer and see how God was doing. I surprisingly felt so much relief from just sitting there thinking about life and meditating. I really didn’t think I would have enjoyed the experience as much as I did, but I can truly say that it helped me think more positively and feel like a weight had lifted off my shoulders.

Before, I never really understood how people could feel so refreshed after going to church and strongly believe in a religion with their being. After these past 3 days I am definitely changing my thoughts and views. I don’t feel like church will necessarily help everyone, but I do believe that being in such a sacred environment with your own thoughts and meditating can really help. I prefer to just visit church randomly and just sit there in silence, no mass and no celebrations, just my personal therapy.

If you have been going through a rough time or have lost someone close to you, I suggest visiting your local church, having a sit down and just be there with your thoughts. It is a beautiful way to reflect and relax. Lighting a candle for someone you love always helps.

Stay strong and keep positive!

Love Saby

The start of a new chapter

I used to blog about beauty and fashion. Now, my life has changed so much and i feel like i need to express the positives and negatives in my life. I am 21 years old and i have had many ups and downs and at this point i wouldn’t change them, even though i would have loved to in the past. My experiences make me who i am today.

I feel like this past month i have realised that focusing on the positive and opportunities ahead is the way forward. Not thinking about the past and shit that did or could have happened. It wasn’t meant to be, that is exactly what i want to think.

Now this is the blog that I’m going to share my thoughts and feelings.

Love Saby